15 weeks and feeling meh

15 weeks

We’ve made it another week! Second trimester, 2nd high-risk pregnancy with Baby #2 (we’ve gotta come up with another name!). The baby is in my right uterus, just like Hannah. He/she sits WAY over on my right side. If you look closely enough, I’m just a little lopsided. Fun side effect of having uterus didelphys! (That won’t last the whole time, and I’ll call you out if I see you staring.)

Ligament pain tends to kick in for me a little early, too.  A lot of times it just means I need to sit down, slow down and take it easy for a minute or three.  Nothing like shooting pain down your side to remind you that you’re pregnant!! While it’s not the most fun thing in the world, it lets me know baby is growing and moving around in there. So long as it doesn’t get too extreme, I’ll take it every day of the week.

Like any pregnancy, I have my good days and I have my bad. Good: No spotting this pregnancy!! I spotted dark brown blood from my empty uterus for the first 10 weeks with Hannah. That can happen with uterus didelphys.  That, or even a ton of blood once the empty one realizes it’s not pregnant.  Sometimes, though, it doesn’t.  And so far that’s the case with me! Yay! Spotting is the scariest thing if you’ve ever had a miscarriage.

The bad: I REALLY wish this “morning sickness” would let up.  I put it in quotes because for me it’s all day, and actually gets worse at night.  I’m on Zofran to keep the nausea away and help me eat a little… but sometimes I just need to sleep it off.  I was sick through 24 weeks with Hannah, so I’m prepared for a few more months of this. 

I love playing with my daughter, but between feeling sick and having no energy I feel bad about the kind of mom she’s getting right now. So, to make up for it, any ounce of extra energy I have goes towards her.  This little girl is something else.  Let’s see… she’s already learned to roll her eyes at me, dances to music whenever she hears it, and is REALLY good at the word NO. She’s sassy… and I have NO IDEA where she gets it from! (wink wink)  I blame her father! Ha! Just kidding.

imageEpic hair on a grumpy morning

imageCruising the strip… otherwise known as the hallway.

imageColoring… our new favorite pastime.

My high risk pregnancy

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14 weeks

Being pregnant is such an exciting time.  But for some of us, it’s also scary.  When I was pregnant with my daughter Hannah, it was hard to believe we were actually going to be parents until the moment she was out, laying on my chest. (That was an awesome moment by the way)

We had 2 miscarriages before we were pregnant with her.  I believe the combination of a fertility specialist and acupuncture helped us start the family we always wanted.  I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis, Factor 5 Leiden, MTHFR, a blocked fallopian tube, and polyps (fortunately non-cancerous) covering my uteri – I’ll get to that one in a minute.  My doctor said it was a miracle I was getting pregnant in the first place.  The polyps were likely causing the miscarriages… as there were maybe 2 places for an egg to successfully implant.  Surgery corrected the problems and I was put on medication.

Within 2 months of getting the green light, we were pregnant.  I was lucky.  It’s for these reasons why I choose to remain quiet about my pregnancies through the first trimester, even if I start to show.  Miscarrying is HORRIBLE, and the only people we feel comfortable talking about it with are our friends and family.

That being said I’m at risk for also miscarrying during my second and third trimesters.  Yes, you read correctly earlier… I wrote “uteri”.  I have Uterus Didelphys.  It’s a rare uterine anomaly that you typically will hear about in the news when a woman gives birth to twins… one from each uterus.  I have the most extreme case of Uterus Didelphys that exists… two uteri, two cervixes, two vaginas. 

I was diagnosed when I was 15, felt like a freak and was scared.

Every uterine anomaly is different, so until you go through one pregnancy, it’s really unclear how your body will handle it.  There are problems to watch out for, including giving birth early.  In my case, my right uterus is slightly bigger than my left.  Both are about half the size of a normal one. With Hannah, I had to get a cerclage at 19 weeks, water broke at 38 weeks and she came in weighing 5 lbs. 10.5 oz… So I’m monitored closely. 

It has been a long process learning about this condition over the years.  And finding doctors who are well-versed in it is not easy.  In 2007 I was once again on my own, in a new city (Denver, CO) and needed to find new physicians.  My cousin (now an OBGYN resident in Chicago), asked around to her professors if they knew anyone or place that could knowledgeably treat me.  Their response was unanimous… go to the University of Colorado Hospital in Aurora.  They specialize in uterine anomalies and high risk pregnancies. 

Not only were these doctors able to help me diagnose my early problems, but they really made me feel like they were going to get me and my baby safely through my pregnancy. 

This time is no different.  And this time I’ve decided to share my journey.  It may be scary at times, but that’s reality.  And I think it’s important for people to know that being pregnant isn’t always easy.   It’s scary to share something so personal, but if it helps just one other person… perhaps another 15 year old who is just finding out she has the same thing… then it’s worth it.